Top Twenty
20. Sunday Service Choir, “Lift Up Your Voices”: This whole album was brilliant, full of refreshingly pure and pared-down gospel music, but this is the choir’s crowning achievement, the chorus gradually rising and falling from ecstasy into bliss.
19. Vampire Weekend, “This Life”: The two Vampire Weekend songs on this list were probably my most-listened-to of the year, and “This Life,” a song about getting through suffering and doubt with the backdrop of the sunniest instrumentation you could imagine, was a big escape for me all 2019 and into 2020.
18. Ariana Grande, “NASA”: I think I dismissed this song on first listen, because she spells out “N-A-S-A,” and superficially that seemed silly to me, but this is a perfectly crafted little amuse-bouche of a song.
17. Big Thief, “Not”: Frontwoman Adrianne Lenker and her bandmates make music that often seems to exist on another plane, but this song about remaining present in the here and now is the most alive they’ve ever sounded.
16. Billie Eilish, “bad guy”: Eilish is less of a provocateur than the jittery villainy of her most famous song made her appear to be, but it nevertheless made her instantly iconic.
15. Joan Shelley, “Teal”: Shelley may never get the recognition she deserves, but according to “Teal,” all she needs are “fresh air, and wind, and waves,” and maybe that’s enough for me too.
14. Billie Eilish, “everything i wanted”: I love “bad guy,” but if you want to hear something closer to Eilish’s true capacity, “everything i wanted,” while closer to sounding like a more straightforward pop song, is the one.
13. Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds, “Bright Horses”: Cave’s incredible two-album cycle processing grief and the loss of his son is best represented by this ode to the impossibility and necessity of hope.
12. Brittany Howard, “Stay High”: Jaime didn’t quite work for me as a full album, but this highlight makes me so happy every time I hear it.
11. Taylor Swift, “Soon You’ll Get Better (feat. The Chicks)”: This isn’t the first Taylor Swift song to make me cry, but it’s probably the one I’ve cried during the most.
10. Lana Del Rey, “F*ck it I love you”: If there’s any song that more succinctly sums up Del Rey’s appeal, I haven’t heard it. She’s an avatar for millennial malaise, high expectations with mild disappointment leading to self-medication in one way or another more often than not in her songs. In this one, she reaches for clichés (“California dreamin’, got money on my mind”) but ends up forsaking them for something ostensibly more meaningful in her lover, but succumbing to meaninglessness anyway.
9. John Moreland, “East October”: Trying to survive in a cruel world necessitates either hope or despair, and John Moreland’s music exists at the intersection between the two. This song leans into the despair of getting by as a sober person, without anything to ease the pain. But Moreland understands that the act of living is inherently connected to the spiritual, and the pain in this song is cut with the knowledge that there is a way, even if its somewhere above his understanding.
8. Taylor Swift, “Cornelia Street [Live from Paris]”: This is cheating a bit; this version of the song wasn’t released till May of this year, though the performance is from September 2019, so I’m counting it as a 2019 song. The original “Cornelia Street,” combining the fear of losing a good thing with an incredible sense of place within her memories, is pop perfection. But this version features Swift on acoustic guitar, and it’s an incredible example of the connection she can foster with her audience when she strips her songs down and lets her songwriting take center stage.
7. Dua Lipa, “Don’t Start Now”: Lipa broke the Best New Artist curse with this song. It should have been hard to replicate her early success, the propulsive pop anthems of “IDGAF” and “New Rules” matching any hit from the last ten years for addictiveness, but Future Nostalgia‘s first single has been the best of the bunch. Those first hits were precocious, rising above her status as a newcomer; “Don’t Start Now” solidifies her as a contender for one of the queens of pop.
6. Vampire Weekend, “Harmony Hall”: If you listen to Ezra Koenig tell it, this song is intensely political, carrying loaded themes of power and oppression. I believe him, but like many songs that reach for higher meaning, it needs to work on a visceral level as well, and “Harmony Hall” was probably the biggest balm for me of 2019. Sometimes I’d listen to it on repeat after a hard day and just be comforted by the acoustic guitar lick that forms the song’s backbone and by the plinking piano that gives it flavor, while repeating the refrain of “I don’t want to live like this, but I don’t know why,” somehow finding in the paradox a salve.
5. Sharon Van Etten, “Seventeen”: Van Etten has always been one of a kind at painting her songs like the landscape of her inner mind, but she outdoes herself on this single from Remind Me Tomorrow. If her forte before this album was introspection, she takes a detour into retrospection for a song, diving into the freedom she felt as a teenager in New York City. I’ve never lived in New York City, but “Seventeen” perfectly captures for me the feeling at the titular age of having the world at your fingertips without any understanding of what time can do to you. It also sums up what seeing people that age now feels like, that they are somehow your “shadow.” Maybe it’s just a product of being in my thirties that songs like this, about the profundity of time passing, resonate with me. Or maybe it’s just a great song.
4. Taylor Swift, “Lover”: Swift has written a lot of songs about love, but she hasn’t written a lot of love songs, and there’s been a special dearth of them since 2012’s Red. Most of her songs about love look into the past at relationships since dissolved. “Lover” is the first in a long time, and it’s the most content she’s ever sounded. Swift likes a chorus that propels you into the upper stratosphere, and “Lover” doesn’t do that. Instead, “Lover” finds peace in current commitment with a view to a life of the same. That doesn’t sound exciting put that way, but it’s one of the most life-giving songs she’s ever written.
3. Our Native Daughters, “You’re Not Alone”: There are other uplifting songs on Songs of Our Native Daughters, but after an album about suffering and oppression, the folk supergroup chose to end it with a lullaby to the next generation, and it listens like the light breaking over the horizon. Group member Allison Russell wrote and sings the song specifically for her 5-year-old daughter, hoping she can face the world with the knowledge that she is loved by her earthly family and the host of African ancestors that faced the world before her. I know that I cannot draw from the same heritage that Russell is evoking here; it’s specific to her family, her people. But the wider themes of encouraging her daughter that she is connected to a history of love and strength in the face of a cruel world…yeah, I think that’s hitting home right about now.
2. Lana Del Rey, “hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have – but I have it”: I already unpacked Del Rey’s puzzling lack of self-awareness regarding her privilege in the post about my favorite albums of 2019, and here’s an example of the exact opposite. If there’s an example of someone’s complexity perfectly reflecting the current state of culture, it’s Del Rey, and this song is the perfect reflection of that reflection. It’s what made her response to her critics so frustrating; songs like “hope” reveal that she does know her place in the world. She’s a certain kind of woman living a certain kind of life, and that means something specific.
Del Rey is known (and criticized) for playing into the stereotypes of a fragile woman, dependent and submissive to the men in her life, sometimes to the point of abuse, which is an archetype rife with land mines. I think she pulls it off, but your mileage may vary. A song like “hope” is about this tension though, “a modern day woman with a wake constitution” still maintaining the belief that life will get better. She thinks that the culture thinks hope isn’t an option for her, and she defies that notion. It’s the strongest song on a strong record, and I couldn’t get enough of it in 2019.
1. Blue Ivy, SAINt JHN, Beyoncé & WizKid, “BROWN SKIN GIRL”: You may be seeing a trend in these top three songs: female empowerment anthems that may or may not be meant for a daughter. I promise this isn’t a “as a father of a daughter” moment though; I liked these songs before we even knew we were having a child at all, let alone that she would be a girl. But I can’t deny that thinking about my daughter facing the world gives these songs extra power for me.
LION KING: THE GIFT is Beyoncé’s project, so it’s significant that she gives her daughter first billing on this song. Coming from Beyoncé later in the song, the song’s chorus is meant as an exhortation to her child to love herself, even if the world’s artificial standard of beauty doesn’t match up. But having Blue sing it at the beginning makes it sound like a mantra Blue has internalized, something that’s taken root in her heart.
I know this song is for Black girls of all shades and shapes and not for me. But it’s been good for my heart to listen to this song over and over again over the last year, feeling the pure love in Beyoncé’s words and the desire for her child to find her worth in something outside the wider culture. There’s common ground there for me; I don’t know what my daughter will be tempted to believe about herself from a world that doesn’t value the good things inside of her. But “Brown Skin Girl” is such a beautiful model for how a parent can shut the world out for her child and teach her what good really is.
Another Thirty Contenders (alphabetical by artist)
21 Savage, “a lot”
Angel Olsen, “Lark”
Ariana Grande, “break up with your girlfriend, i’m bored”
Better Oblivion Community Center, “Dylan Thomas”
Beyoncé, “SPIRIT”
Bill Callahan, “Lonesome Valley”
Bon Iver, “Faith”
DaBaby, “Suge”
FKA twigs, “cellophane”
HAIM, “Summer Girl”
The Highwomen, “Highwomen”
Holly Herndon, “Frontier”
Joan Shelley, “The Fading”
Joan Shelley, “The Sway”
John Moreland, “Harder Dreams”
Josh Garrels, “Follow”
Katy Perry, “Never Really Over”
Megan Thee Stallion, “Hot Girl Summer (feat. Nicki Minaj & Ty Dolla $ign)”
Miranda Lambert, “Tequila Does”
Over the Rhine, “Broken Angels”
Purple Mountains, “All My Happiness Is Gone”
ROSALÍA, “Milionària”
Sam Smith, “How Do You Sleep?”
Selena Gomez, “Lose You to Love Me”
Sunday Service Choir, “Count Your Blessings”
Sunday Service Choir, “Revelations 19:1”
The Tallest Man on Earth, “I Love You. It’s a Fever Dream.”
Thom Yorke, “Dawn Chorus”
Young Thug, “Hot (feat. Gunna)”
Past Top Tens
Ariana Grande, “thank u, next”
The 1975, “Love It If We Made It”
Ariana Grande, “no tears left to cry”
Drake, “Nice for What”
Janelle Monáe, “Make Me Feel”
Our Native Daughters, “Mama’s Cryin’ Long”
Cardi B, Bad Bunny & J Balvin, “I Like It”
Ariana Grande, “imagine”
Drake, “In My Feelings”
Courtney Marie Andrews, “May Your Kindness Remains”
Sufjan Stevens, “Mystery of Love”
Brandi Carlile, “The Joke”
Selena Gomez, “Bad Liar”
Kesha, “Praying”
Hurray for the Riff Raff, “Pa’lante”
Rhiannon Giddens, “Birmingham Sunday”
Lorde, “Green Light”
Propaganda, “Gentrify”
The War on Drugs, “Thinking of a Place”
Julien Baker, “Appointments”
Kanye West, “Ultralight Beam”
Rae Sremmurd, “Black Beatles (feat. Gucci Mane)”
Rihanna, “Work (feat. Drake)”
Drive-By Truckers, “What It Means”
Chance the Rapper, “No Problem (feat. Lil Wayne & 2 Chainz)”
Leonard Cohen, “You Want It Darker”
Solange, “Cranes in the Sky”
Car Seat Headrest, “Fill in the Blank”
Lecrae, “Can’t Stop Me Now (Destination)”
Japandroids, “Near to the Wild Heart of Life”
Leon Bridges, “River”
Sufjan Stevens, “No Shade in the Shadow of the Cross”
Donnie Trumpet & the Social Experiment, “Sunday Candy”
Blood Orange, “Sandra’s Smile”
Kendrick Lamar, “Alright”
Alessia Cara, “Here”
Justin Bieber, “Love Yourself”
Rihanna and Kanye West and Paul McCartney, “FourFiveSeconds”
Jack Ü, “Where Are Ü Now (with Justin Bieber)”
Miguel, “Coffee (F***ing) (feat. Wale)”
FKA twigs, “Two Weeks”
Strand of Oaks, “Goshen ’97”
The War on Drugs, “Red Eyes”
John Mark McMillan, “Future / Past”
First Aid Kit, “Waitress Song”
Sia, “Chandelier”
Jackie Hill Perry, “I Just Wanna Get There”
Taylor Swift, “Out of the Woods”
Parquet Courts, “Instant Disassembly”
Sharon Van Etten, “Your Love Is Killing Me”